Day 8 - Weight 310.2 lbs. - Sending Up a Flare

I have to admit to a serious issue I'm having with all this new stuff. It's been happening for about ten to fourteen days now. I called John, my Crossfit trainer, to ask about it because it's so unnerving and I'm haivng trouble dealing with it. This problem gets in the way of my life every day now, after I work out.

The problem: a blast of energy I cannot deal with, that might last for a few hours. For a while after each workout I'm okay, but within one hour I am off the wall. I cannot sit still. I want to go run or punch walls or something. I cannot concentrate. My legs shake. People ask me if I'm okay. This really gets upsetting because I have had issues with depression and anxiety in the past. I'm a recovering alcoholic, and this is very reminiscent of alcohol withdrawal--minus some of the other bits of misery--but that's a place I do not need to go. I've been involved with exercise long enough to know what the "workout high" feels like, and it's helpful for all things; I can concentrate better and I feel like a million bucks. Thus wasn't it, and frankly, it has been a bit scary. Plus, I have work to do, so I need to figure this out, and thus I reached out to John.

John told me the following: If you're doing things right, this can happen. My body is burning fat straight from the stores and it's giving me a blast of energy, because the hormonal responses are rocking me. To mitigate this, I might need to spend ten to twenty minutes on the treadmill or something after a hard workout, sort of an additional cooldown and to burn off excess energy. I should also switch up my recovery snack; instead of a three-block snack with fruit, I should do something along the lines of 1 block of protein, 3-4 blocks of carbs, and no fat. This'll help my body deal more effectively with this hardcore energizing that's happening. John said there may be an emotional adjustment period as well, but that once I refine how I deal with this, maybe I can enjoy the ride!

But today, it wasn't fun. I wanted to loose a barbaric YAWP! and run around the library punching things. It may seem funny but it wasn't. I just wanted to relax so I could work. I had so much to do. Honestly, I wanted to cry. Still, I survived, and got my work done as well.
I am happy this is all working, and it's nice that this may be part of the normal adjustment. And besides, it looks like tomorrow I will crack 310 lbs., so Happy Valentine's Day everyone! No candy!

Menu:

Breakfast (4 blocks)

- 2 cups strawberries, 2 cups broccoli, 1 HB egg, 3 oz. chicken, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil

Snack (1 blocks)

- 1 string cheese, 1 small apple, 3 nuts

Recovery Snack (3 blocks)

- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp almond butter

Lunch (4 blocks)

- 1 bag broccoli slaw, 1/3 cup peas & carrots, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 4.5 oz. shrimp,, 1 egg
- 15g chopped nuts, 1/3 tsp olive oil 

Snack (2 blocks)

- 1 grapefruit, 2 string cheeses, 6 nuts

Snack (1 blocks)

- 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 3 nuts, 1 string cheese stick

Dinner (4 blocks)

- 4 oz. pork, 165 g sweet potatoes, 1 cup green beans & broccoli, 1-2/3 tsp. butter

Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee

Today was insane in many ways, but change can cause temporary insanity sometimes. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0


Total points so far: 0