Today's WOD was really something but I did very well. I felt pretty bad afterward, though, and had serious indigestion. I'm gonna be more careful with my meds and make sure I eat a snack 90 minutes beforehand, which I normally do but DID NOT do today (I got caught up in things). I felt I had to eat my emergency clementine. Still, I know that I can do a WOD on 4 blocks. I can probably do a WOD on nothing, but that's pointless.
The emotional side of this can be scary. On the one hand I fear for my heart, and I have to deal with potential anxiety about that more often than I'd like to admit. But a WOD like today's is as good a proof as any that my heart is strong, is it not?--confirming what numerous medical tests over the past three years have told me. I lifted more weight over my head than EVER before, and 55 times to boot; I didn't have to drop any weight off the bar until the last round! I did plenty of knee push-ups and never had to drop to wall push-ups. The ring rows might have been better if I made them harder, so I'm obviously growing there, too. I managed to finish the WOD before the 30-minute limit, with a few minutes to spare.
It's obvious that if I keep this up, the day will soon come when I'm doing real pull-ups, real push-ups, and real everything using the prescription weights. Yet I still get scared. I can barely see through the tears right now. It is so hard to conceptualize this kind of success. In the past I ran away from it, always in sight of the finish line, it seemed. And I fear for my health, despite evidence that I don't need to worry. But I can't quit. I have no reason to.
John, one of my CrossFit trainers, pushes me toward the Boilermaker and I waver between balking and signing up. On the one hand it's 15k--a big deal, walk or run--and I haven't done anything like it since the Army back in the day. I am 40 years old. On the other hand, what might I accomplish if I were to lose 50-80 lbs. between now and then, training all the while? After all, it's not the overweight guy of today that'll be running, it's some other guy I don't know, who is slimmer, stronger, and more fit in every way. Who am I to deny him the chance to do something amazing?
So there I am. I have to set it aside for now. It's too big for this humble follower of Christ to chew on anymore for a while. I'm just trying to put one foot in front of the other, hour by hour, day by day, in a way that honors God and what He's carried me through. It's gonna be an early bedtime for me tonight.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1/2 tsp. almond butter, 1 tsp. coconut oil,
- 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 apple
Post-workout Snack (free!)
- 1 clementine
Lunch (8 blocks)
- 3+ cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 tsp coconut oil, 1 tsp. butter, 3 oz. chicken, 1 egg
- 4 Tricia meatballs, 1 cup Chan chili, 110g sweet potatoes
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 grapefruit, 2 oz. pork, 1 nut, 1/2+ tsp. coconut oil
Dinner (4 blocks)
- 3+ cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 5g chopped nuts, 2 oz. pork, 1.5 oz. shrimp, 1 egg
Snack (1 block)
1.5 oz. fish, 3 nuts, night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I'm glad today is done. I think I'm gonna cut back on the tea and make it one CHO point instead of the 3 CHO go-cup I keep by the bed. I'm not sick anymore, but I really like the tea. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Day 21 - Weight ???? lbs. - Kicking Back
I forgot to weigh myself this morning. No biggie. I think I might occasionally forget on purpose.
It was a busy enough morning; after church I tried to get stuff done so I could kick back with the boys. It went well enough. I'm hitting the sack early tonight.
Menu:
Breakfast: (3 blocks)
- 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 cup cooked onion, 2 eggs, 3 oz. fish, 1-1/2 tsp. butter
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts, 1 CHO block 72% dark chocolate
- 1 clementine, 1/3 tsp coconut oil, 1/4 cup cottage cheese
Lunch (6 blocks)
- 4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 apple, 1 egg, 2 tsp. butter, 1/2 tsp. coconut oil, 5 oz. chicken
Snack: (1 blocks)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts, 1 CHO block 72% dark chocolate
Snack (2 blocks)
- 3 oz. fish, 1/2 apple, 1 clementine, 2/3 tsp. butter
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 cup chan chili, 3/4 cup snow peas
Dinner (3 blocks)
- 6 Trish meatballs, 1/2 tsp. coconut oil,
night tea plus agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I think I'm ready for a new week. Three down, five to go... Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
It was a busy enough morning; after church I tried to get stuff done so I could kick back with the boys. It went well enough. I'm hitting the sack early tonight.
Menu:
Breakfast: (3 blocks)
- 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 cup cooked onion, 2 eggs, 3 oz. fish, 1-1/2 tsp. butter
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts, 1 CHO block 72% dark chocolate
- 1 clementine, 1/3 tsp coconut oil, 1/4 cup cottage cheese
Lunch (6 blocks)
- 4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 apple, 1 egg, 2 tsp. butter, 1/2 tsp. coconut oil, 5 oz. chicken
Snack: (1 blocks)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts, 1 CHO block 72% dark chocolate
Snack (2 blocks)
- 3 oz. fish, 1/2 apple, 1 clementine, 2/3 tsp. butter
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 cup chan chili, 3/4 cup snow peas
Dinner (3 blocks)
- 6 Trish meatballs, 1/2 tsp. coconut oil,
night tea plus agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I think I'm ready for a new week. Three down, five to go... Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Day 20 - Weight 305.0 lbs. - More Crap to Take
Thanks to a whacked-out beginning to my day, my eating was off-kilter--but still in line with the wisdom of the Party. I ate breakfast later than I wanted, got stuck at WalMart, drove to Utica, waited for my wife to finish with my son's braces, then got home, and still hadn't eaten. So it was approaching 3 p.m. and I had a good 14+ blocks to eat! Life's like that.
I have a jar of coconut oil now, so once I start putting that into my body I will become superman or something.
I ate a six block dinner and I had a few blocks left. I tried super dark baking chocolate just because I could. It's not great. That's the kind of day it's been.
Menu:
Breakfast: (4 blocks)
- 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 cup cooked onion, 2 eggs, 3 oz. fish, 1-1/2 tsp. butter
Lunch (5 blocks)
- 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 cup broccoli & cauliflower, 1 egg, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 1/2 tsp. olive oil, 6 oz. shrimp
Snack: (1 blocks)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts, 1 CHO block 72% dark chocolate
Dinner (6 blocks)
- 285g sweet potatoes, 6 oz. pork, 2 tsp butter
Snack (3 block)
- 1 block 100% dark chocolate, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts, 1/3 tsp. coconut oil, 1 oz. pork
night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I'd like to see Sunday be more normal, and I hope I can do lots of prep work, but we might be playing with the boys all day after church. If we do that and I whine all week because I didn't take time to prepare food, let me hear about it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
I have a jar of coconut oil now, so once I start putting that into my body I will become superman or something.
I ate a six block dinner and I had a few blocks left. I tried super dark baking chocolate just because I could. It's not great. That's the kind of day it's been.
Menu:
Breakfast: (4 blocks)
- 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 cup cooked onion, 2 eggs, 3 oz. fish, 1-1/2 tsp. butter
Lunch (5 blocks)
- 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 cup broccoli & cauliflower, 1 egg, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 1/2 tsp. olive oil, 6 oz. shrimp
Snack: (1 blocks)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts, 1 CHO block 72% dark chocolate
Dinner (6 blocks)
- 285g sweet potatoes, 6 oz. pork, 2 tsp butter
Snack (3 block)
- 1 block 100% dark chocolate, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts, 1/3 tsp. coconut oil, 1 oz. pork
night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I'd like to see Sunday be more normal, and I hope I can do lots of prep work, but we might be playing with the boys all day after church. If we do that and I whine all week because I didn't take time to prepare food, let me hear about it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Friday, February 25, 2011
Day 19 - Weight 304.6 lbs. - Back On the Horse
How'd I gain a pound overnight? hahaha If I don't cultivate a sense of humor about the vagaries of the human body, namely mine, I will never succeed here. It's all good, and I know it, because God makes all things work together for those who are called according to His purpose.
Today's eating was insane. I thought I had plenty of time at home today and it just wasn't like that, so it was leftovers and no meat until dinner. Still, if it's all good, it's all good. Better to over-rely on cheese and clementines than ditch out altogether. Let's all face the truth... I didn't get fat on cheese and clementines.
I did well enough at CrossFit to feel like I'm back and ready to go. Right now, though, at the day's end, I am tired.
I don't know how much longer I'm gonna end my nights in bed with tea plus lemon juice and agave nectar. It doesn't seem to be any trouble, being of low glycemic index. I lost 5 lbs. drinking that at night... can't be all bad. Besides, I like it. I often end up finishing it in the morning because I don't make it all the way through.
I can definitely see myself doing this for the rest of my time on this rock.
Menu:
Breakfast: (4 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 2 tsp. almond butter, 1 apple, 1 clementine
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1 grapefruit, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 220g sweet potatoes, 1 cup cottage cheese, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 clementine, 6 nuts, 2 string cheese sticks
Snack (1 block)
- 1 string cheese stick, 1 clementine, 3 nuts
Dinner (5 blocks)
- 5 oz. fish, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 3 cups cauliflower & broccoli mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 tsp. butter, 5g chopped nuts, 1 CHO block 72% dark chocolate
night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
By my recollection ultra-dark chocolate is kosher, and so there I was... hahaha! It ain't a Snickers bar, but it's nice to have around. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Today's eating was insane. I thought I had plenty of time at home today and it just wasn't like that, so it was leftovers and no meat until dinner. Still, if it's all good, it's all good. Better to over-rely on cheese and clementines than ditch out altogether. Let's all face the truth... I didn't get fat on cheese and clementines.
I did well enough at CrossFit to feel like I'm back and ready to go. Right now, though, at the day's end, I am tired.
I don't know how much longer I'm gonna end my nights in bed with tea plus lemon juice and agave nectar. It doesn't seem to be any trouble, being of low glycemic index. I lost 5 lbs. drinking that at night... can't be all bad. Besides, I like it. I often end up finishing it in the morning because I don't make it all the way through.
I can definitely see myself doing this for the rest of my time on this rock.
Menu:
Breakfast: (4 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 2 tsp. almond butter, 1 apple, 1 clementine
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1 grapefruit, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 220g sweet potatoes, 1 cup cottage cheese, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 clementine, 6 nuts, 2 string cheese sticks
Snack (1 block)
- 1 string cheese stick, 1 clementine, 3 nuts
Dinner (5 blocks)
- 5 oz. fish, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 3 cups cauliflower & broccoli mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 tsp. butter, 5g chopped nuts, 1 CHO block 72% dark chocolate
night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
By my recollection ultra-dark chocolate is kosher, and so there I was... hahaha! It ain't a Snickers bar, but it's nice to have around. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Day 18 - Weight 303.6 lbs. - Kick Butt Today For A Better Tomorrow
How'd I lose three pounds overnight? No clue. Various things held weight, then released, I guess. I can't waste too much time worrying about that, so I praise God and keep doing what I'm doing, only try to do it better, a little at a time, accepting setbacks and moving forward despite them. I'm just glad to see 299 lbs. in sight. Now, I have to get on with life, put in the work, and forget the numbers. I still hope to see less weight tomorrow, but being within striking distance of 299 is a-okay.
I had a lot of things to do today. I was gonna have my wife Alice measure me again, but we did it wrong so tomorrow morning we do it again! I hope. I had computer issues too, and got basically no work done, but I made some calls so tomorrow is still cool for everything I have to do. Awesome.
Menu:
Breakfast: (3 blocks)
- 3 eggs, 1 clementine, 1 apple, 9 nuts
Snack: (3 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1 tsp. almond butter, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 tsp. olive oil
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1 cup spaghetti squash, 1/2 cup homemade tomato sauce, 2 oz. turkey, 2/3 tsp. butter
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 3 oz. pork, 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tsp. butter, 5g chopped nuts, 1/2 cup cooked onions, 1 egg
Dinner (6 blocks)
- 5 oz. pork, 1/3 cup shredded mozzarella cheese, 1 cup homemade tomato sauce, 1 cup cooked onions, 1 bag broccoli slaw, 1-1/2 tsp. olive oil, 10g chopped nuts
Snack (1 block)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts
night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I look forward to Friday. I have plenty going on but I can manage it, I think. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
I had a lot of things to do today. I was gonna have my wife Alice measure me again, but we did it wrong so tomorrow morning we do it again! I hope. I had computer issues too, and got basically no work done, but I made some calls so tomorrow is still cool for everything I have to do. Awesome.
Menu:
Breakfast: (3 blocks)
- 3 eggs, 1 clementine, 1 apple, 9 nuts
Snack: (3 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1 tsp. almond butter, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 tsp. olive oil
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1 cup spaghetti squash, 1/2 cup homemade tomato sauce, 2 oz. turkey, 2/3 tsp. butter
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 3 oz. pork, 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tsp. butter, 5g chopped nuts, 1/2 cup cooked onions, 1 egg
Dinner (6 blocks)
- 5 oz. pork, 1/3 cup shredded mozzarella cheese, 1 cup homemade tomato sauce, 1 cup cooked onions, 1 bag broccoli slaw, 1-1/2 tsp. olive oil, 10g chopped nuts
Snack (1 block)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts
night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I look forward to Friday. I have plenty going on but I can manage it, I think. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Day 17 - Weight 306.6 lbs. - Planning the Next Campaign
Honestly, I did not feel so hot for a big chunk of today. It's hard to describe. I can't tell if it was physical or emotional--it was simply disconcerting and I wished I felt better. In times like these I like to do cardio or CrossFit because it is sort of my way of saying, "If I'm gonna blow a gasket, then fine, otherwise leave me alone." Maybe I'm just depressed, although I don't seem to have much reason to be. I'm so glad I no longer smoke or drink. I'd feel so much worse! I think some of it is physical but the rest is in my head. I needed the break but I hope not to need one for a while. I ended up praying it away. Prayer works!
They've fixed my favorite elliptical trainer at the YMCA. I can use it to train my pose-running muscles with less impact, which is good because at this weight, even a moderate amount of treadmill beats me up too much. I'd like to have working knees when I'm 65. I hope to spend more time in the gym over the coming weeks, pushing as hard as I can in CrossFit and working outside there as well. I'm hoping to remember to do my measurements tomorrow morning and send them to the trainers to see if my block prescription needs to change.
Menu:
Breakfast: (5 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 HB egg, 195g cooked apples, 2/3 tbsp agave nectar, 5g chopped nuts, 1-1/2 tsp. butter
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 110g sweet potatoes, 2 oz beef roast, 1 tsp. butter
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 2 oz. turkey, 3 nuts, 1/2 tsp. olive oil, 1 clementine, 3/4 cup raw snow peas
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 4 oz. beef roast, 110g sweet potatoes, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 1 cup cooked onions
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 apple, 2 oz. turkey, 6 nuts
Dinner (3 blocks)
- 2 oz. beef roast, 1 egg, 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 tsp. butter
Snack (1 block)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts
night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 8+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I look forward to CrossFit Friday. I feel like I have something to prove. I could use a victory. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
They've fixed my favorite elliptical trainer at the YMCA. I can use it to train my pose-running muscles with less impact, which is good because at this weight, even a moderate amount of treadmill beats me up too much. I'd like to have working knees when I'm 65. I hope to spend more time in the gym over the coming weeks, pushing as hard as I can in CrossFit and working outside there as well. I'm hoping to remember to do my measurements tomorrow morning and send them to the trainers to see if my block prescription needs to change.
Menu:
Breakfast: (5 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 HB egg, 195g cooked apples, 2/3 tbsp agave nectar, 5g chopped nuts, 1-1/2 tsp. butter
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 110g sweet potatoes, 2 oz beef roast, 1 tsp. butter
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 2 oz. turkey, 3 nuts, 1/2 tsp. olive oil, 1 clementine, 3/4 cup raw snow peas
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 4 oz. beef roast, 110g sweet potatoes, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 1 cup cooked onions
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 apple, 2 oz. turkey, 6 nuts
Dinner (3 blocks)
- 2 oz. beef roast, 1 egg, 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 tsp. butter
Snack (1 block)
- 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts
night tea with agave nectar
Total water consumption: 8+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I look forward to CrossFit Friday. I feel like I have something to prove. I could use a victory. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Day 16 - Weight 307.4 lbs. - One Day At A Time
Life can be overwhelming, and my number one goal these days is to face what I must face, make the best calls I can, and stay on target. If things begin to get out of hand, it may be time to step back for a day or two.
This has been a tough week involving tough choices. I have tons of work to do, I'm recovering from being sick, and I've been beaten and ragged well before the day is done. My knees have been weak for several days as well. As a result, I'm backing off the gym for a few days. I'll bring my A game to Friday's CrossFit, and maybe I'll do a little static movement in between if I get a chance. Other than that, I'm gonna hit the rest of life hard for a few days so I can hit the resent button this weekend. I don't want anything to get out of hand.
Menu:
Breakfast: (4 blocks)
- 3 scrambled eggs, 1/2 cup reduced fat shredded mozzarella, 3-3/4 cup fry mix, 1 clementine, 3 nuts, 1 tsp. butter
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 2/3 tbsp. agave nectar, 1 tsp. almond butter
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 4 oz. beef roast, 110g sweet potatoes, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 1 cup cooked onions
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 apple, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts
Snack (1 block +fat)
- 3 cups beef roast broth with meat, onion, and sweet potato debris
Dinner (5 blocks)
- 5 oz. pork, 195g cooked apples, 9 nuts, 2/3 tsp olive oil
later, tea with agave nectar and lemon juice.
Total water consumption: 8+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
When I do my next workout, I want to feel ready. I have more than five weeks to go, after all. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
This has been a tough week involving tough choices. I have tons of work to do, I'm recovering from being sick, and I've been beaten and ragged well before the day is done. My knees have been weak for several days as well. As a result, I'm backing off the gym for a few days. I'll bring my A game to Friday's CrossFit, and maybe I'll do a little static movement in between if I get a chance. Other than that, I'm gonna hit the rest of life hard for a few days so I can hit the resent button this weekend. I don't want anything to get out of hand.
Menu:
Breakfast: (4 blocks)
- 3 scrambled eggs, 1/2 cup reduced fat shredded mozzarella, 3-3/4 cup fry mix, 1 clementine, 3 nuts, 1 tsp. butter
Snack: (2 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 2/3 tbsp. agave nectar, 1 tsp. almond butter
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 4 oz. beef roast, 110g sweet potatoes, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 1 cup cooked onions
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 apple, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts
Snack (1 block +fat)
- 3 cups beef roast broth with meat, onion, and sweet potato debris
Dinner (5 blocks)
- 5 oz. pork, 195g cooked apples, 9 nuts, 2/3 tsp olive oil
later, tea with agave nectar and lemon juice.
Total water consumption: 8+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
When I do my next workout, I want to feel ready. I have more than five weeks to go, after all. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Monday, February 21, 2011
Day 15 - Weight 309.0 lbs. - Run Away! Run Away! (for the Python fans)
I bailed at CrossFit tonight and it's embarrassing, but I don't want this to be any bigger than it is so I'm laying it on the table.
I am getting over a wicked cold, and am out of sorts. I'm ragged, emotional, and often feel like I have no resevres for anything. We had a buy-in of 5 min. two-handed kettlebell swings, followed by a WOD that appealed to me, but I guess I just didn't bring the A game. If you stopped during the buy-in you had to do a Turkish get-up, which I didn't mind, so after a minute or so I got tired and went to do a TGU. I got the weight up, and went to shoot through, and I just panicked. I panicked and ran.
I thought about how I've had diarrhea a little today, and I was honestly afraid of that earlier, but I used it as an excuse and bolted. I just panicked. I came back in due time, put in a good 90 seconds of KB swings, and played on. Then came the WOD, which I mailed in because I didn't have my A game today--check that, I didn't mail it in, I just didn't have my best. If I had just admitted that I was hurting, that I wanted to cry, that I just didn't have it today, nobody would have cared. Everyone in the gym knows how hard I've worked.
I don't have to live up to anything or anyone. My only true example is supposed to be Jesus, with the Biblical caveat from the book of Romans that we all fall short of the glory of God. I didn't have it in me today, and I have nothing to be ashamed of. I wish I hadn't made excuses but I guess I'll live and learn. I doubt I was fooling anyone anyway. Some days are better than others, and today, I turned tail in the face of the enemy. My compatriots in class fared better and I salute them for their work. I hope to bring my best Wednesday, and to recharge between now and then.
In other news my weight went up again. My faith in this process shakes occasionally but I will not waiver. Later this week I'm redoing my measurements to check my Zone block prescription, because my eating can't be all that wrong. It's also a bit discouraging to work as hard as I work, eat like I eat, lose 5 pounds one week, and gain a half pound the next. Yes, I have to trust the process and leave the product to God. No, I don't like it all the time. Anyone who says this isn't really about weight loss never weighed 400 pounds. On the other hand, anyone who says that is still probably right.
And so I press on--positively. This is how it goes! I'm taking part in a great becoming, and this sort of thing is par for the course. Now if I can just keep my knees in shape...
Menu:
Snack (1 block)
Snack (1 block)
Snack (1 blocks)
- 1 small apple, 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts
Dinner (7 blocks)
Another day in the books. One day soon I'm gonna look in the mirror and see such a change that I may shed tears of joy. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
I am getting over a wicked cold, and am out of sorts. I'm ragged, emotional, and often feel like I have no resevres for anything. We had a buy-in of 5 min. two-handed kettlebell swings, followed by a WOD that appealed to me, but I guess I just didn't bring the A game. If you stopped during the buy-in you had to do a Turkish get-up, which I didn't mind, so after a minute or so I got tired and went to do a TGU. I got the weight up, and went to shoot through, and I just panicked. I panicked and ran.
I thought about how I've had diarrhea a little today, and I was honestly afraid of that earlier, but I used it as an excuse and bolted. I just panicked. I came back in due time, put in a good 90 seconds of KB swings, and played on. Then came the WOD, which I mailed in because I didn't have my A game today--check that, I didn't mail it in, I just didn't have my best. If I had just admitted that I was hurting, that I wanted to cry, that I just didn't have it today, nobody would have cared. Everyone in the gym knows how hard I've worked.
I don't have to live up to anything or anyone. My only true example is supposed to be Jesus, with the Biblical caveat from the book of Romans that we all fall short of the glory of God. I didn't have it in me today, and I have nothing to be ashamed of. I wish I hadn't made excuses but I guess I'll live and learn. I doubt I was fooling anyone anyway. Some days are better than others, and today, I turned tail in the face of the enemy. My compatriots in class fared better and I salute them for their work. I hope to bring my best Wednesday, and to recharge between now and then.
In other news my weight went up again. My faith in this process shakes occasionally but I will not waiver. Later this week I'm redoing my measurements to check my Zone block prescription, because my eating can't be all that wrong. It's also a bit discouraging to work as hard as I work, eat like I eat, lose 5 pounds one week, and gain a half pound the next. Yes, I have to trust the process and leave the product to God. No, I don't like it all the time. Anyone who says this isn't really about weight loss never weighed 400 pounds. On the other hand, anyone who says that is still probably right.
And so I press on--positively. This is how it goes! I'm taking part in a great becoming, and this sort of thing is par for the course. Now if I can just keep my knees in shape...
Menu:
Breakfast (3 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1 tsp. almond butter, 1/2 tsp. olive oil, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 tbsp. c-raisins
Snack (1 block)
- 1 HB egg, 1 small apple, 1/2 tsp. almond butter
Snack (1 block)
- 1 oz turkey, 1 clementine, 3 nuts
Lunch (5 blocks)
- 1 cup spaghetti squash, 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 10g chopped nuts, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 1 oz turkey, 2 oz chicken, 1.5 oz. shrimp, 1 egg
Snack (1 blocks)
- 1 small apple, 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts
Dinner (7 blocks)
- 6 oz. crock pot beef, 220g sweet potatoes, 1 cup cooked onion, 2 tsp. butter, 6 nuts, 1 string cheese stick
Night tea again, including 2 tbsp. agave nectar
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
Night tea again, including 2 tbsp. agave nectar
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
Another day in the books. One day soon I'm gonna look in the mirror and see such a change that I may shed tears of joy. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Day 14 - Weight 308.8 lbs. - 25% finished
I'm a little disappointed that my weight loss is seemingly stalled, but I have to stress the word 'seemingly' because I'm not just losing fat, I'm building muscle, and I can't easily measure any of this. Plus, I've been sick. I just have to keep plugging away, and when eight weeks has passed, we'll all know what's up. As far as I am cooncerned it is physically impossible for anything but fat loss, muscle gain, and improved health between now and the end of this little challenge. The actual results are up to God, I just have to put in the work.
Yesterday after CrossFit I felt like I could barely stand. Today was better but my head feels like a 35 lb. kettlebell and I can't breathe well. I hope to sleep well again tonight. The week ahead is filled with challenges that I know of, and surely ones that I can't see coming. I do not feel ready but that really never matters, does it?
Menu:
Snack (1 block)
Lunch (4 blocks)
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 oz. turkey, 1 clementine, 3 nuts
Dinner (4 blocks)
I felt a lot better today. I didn't eat much and I didn't worry about it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Yesterday after CrossFit I felt like I could barely stand. Today was better but my head feels like a 35 lb. kettlebell and I can't breathe well. I hope to sleep well again tonight. The week ahead is filled with challenges that I know of, and surely ones that I can't see coming. I do not feel ready but that really never matters, does it?
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 1 cup spaghetti squash, 1/2 bag broccoli slaw, 1 small apple, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1.5 oz. chicken, 2.2 oz shrimp, 1 egg, 5g chopped nuts, 1-1/3 tsp butter
Snack (1 block)
- 1 string cheese stick, 1 small apple, 3 nuts
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 2.2 oz. shrimp, 1.5 oz. chicken, 1 egg
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 oz. turkey, 1 clementine, 3 nuts
Dinner (4 blocks)
- 6 oz. turkey, 4 cups spaghetti squash, 2 tsp. butter
Afterward - Various mixed tea with 2 tbsp agave nectar, 2 tbsp lemon juice
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
Afterward - Various mixed tea with 2 tbsp agave nectar, 2 tbsp lemon juice
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
I felt a lot better today. I didn't eat much and I didn't worry about it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Day 13 - Weight 308.6 lbs. - The Beat Down I Wanted
I guess I had to go back again today. I'm blasted. I must be stupid or something! I didn't sleep well because I'm enjoying a head cold, and I'm worn out from a tough week, and yet I went to CrossFit just to visit and particpiate in some small way. Despite being ill-prepared and feeling miserable, I let them encourage me to work out anyway. It's not like I didn't think it'd happen... after all, I brought my stuff! Well, not all of it, just the stuff in my bag. No towel. No change of clothes (and on a blustery winter day!). No recovery snack.
I guess I showed up and pushed. I guess it was good for me. I ended up feeling better in comparision to how I felt this morning (though that went downhill). Nobody put a gun to my head. I hope to be able to be able to participate in life tomorrow. I need a bit of recharge and I'm not sure a full day is gonna be enough, but I trust my people.
I did not need a recovery snack. John and I both suspect that I've gotten over the hump--or should I say, John says I'm probably over the hump, and he's wringing his hands while I, being the scientist, want a bit more proof. I'll be prepared in the future, just in case. But honestly, I don't even want a recovery snack. If I need it, fine, if not, leave it in the bag.
With a heaving thrust and a grunt, the wary warrior forces the blade in deep. There is no mistaking the demon's shudder, or the way he curls his wrists and draws in his arms and legs before settling in to his fate. He is dead, to be resurrected only in the warrior's mind.
The endless encouragement I'm getting from the local CrossFit community is so kind. I may even believe some of it one of these days. John even has me considering the Boilermaker.
I've been worn out all day but with a few flashes of useful brilliance. I do not regret my CrossFit adventure today but it may not have been the wisest move. I will sleep well tonight! I hope.
Menu:
Snack (1 block)
Snack (1 block)
Snack (2 blocks)
- 2 oz. chicken, 1 apple, 6 nuts
Dinner (4 blocks)
Boy am I glad to be done with today... sound familiar? Though I went a bit over on the carbs late, it was because my cold stinks and I'm coming down with a fever. I want my mommy, a bottle and a soft crib complete with stuffed frog and blankie. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
I guess I showed up and pushed. I guess it was good for me. I ended up feeling better in comparision to how I felt this morning (though that went downhill). Nobody put a gun to my head. I hope to be able to be able to participate in life tomorrow. I need a bit of recharge and I'm not sure a full day is gonna be enough, but I trust my people.
I did not need a recovery snack. John and I both suspect that I've gotten over the hump--or should I say, John says I'm probably over the hump, and he's wringing his hands while I, being the scientist, want a bit more proof. I'll be prepared in the future, just in case. But honestly, I don't even want a recovery snack. If I need it, fine, if not, leave it in the bag.
With a heaving thrust and a grunt, the wary warrior forces the blade in deep. There is no mistaking the demon's shudder, or the way he curls his wrists and draws in his arms and legs before settling in to his fate. He is dead, to be resurrected only in the warrior's mind.
The endless encouragement I'm getting from the local CrossFit community is so kind. I may even believe some of it one of these days. John even has me considering the Boilermaker.
I've been worn out all day but with a few flashes of useful brilliance. I do not regret my CrossFit adventure today but it may not have been the wisest move. I will sleep well tonight! I hope.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 2 tsp. almond butter, 1 egg, 1 cup grean beans. 1/2 tsp. olive oil
Snack (1 block)
- 1 string cheese stick, 1 small apple, 3 nuts
Snack (1 block)
- 1 HB egg, 1 clementine, 3 nuts
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 2-1/2 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1 small apple, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 4.5 oz. shrimp, 1 egg
Snack (2 blocks)
- 2 oz. chicken, 1 apple, 6 nuts
Dinner (4 blocks)
- Homemade pesto clam sauce, 5 to 6 cups spaghetti squash
afterward - 4 string cheese sticks
- Blackberry tea with 2 tbsp agave nectar, 2 tbsp lemon juice
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
afterward - 4 string cheese sticks
- Blackberry tea with 2 tbsp agave nectar, 2 tbsp lemon juice
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee and tea
Boy am I glad to be done with today... sound familiar? Though I went a bit over on the carbs late, it was because my cold stinks and I'm coming down with a fever. I want my mommy, a bottle and a soft crib complete with stuffed frog and blankie. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 1
Friday, February 18, 2011
Day 12 - Weight 308.6 lbs. - Day of Reckoning
When I described the issues I've been having to a few other people with expertise, I heard the same two things: adrenaline rush from a hard workout, and low blood sugar. Needless to say, I went into today with a lot of trepidation. I had a little extra emotional heaviness because I didn't seem to lose any weight yesterday--although in my head, I know how this works and that I shouldn't take day-to-day numbers too seriously, especially with the way I'm working.
Things went well. I am not sure of the exact mechanisms involved but I did very well after CrossFit. Whatever combination of the workout, the aftercare, or the physical changes I've been through are responsible, I cannot say, but I felt and feel good. I thank God for the support I feel underneath me. I need every bit of it.
With the demon seemingly slain, the wary warrior slumps his shoulders and takes a deep breath, then steels himself for the final killing thrust. You never know about those demons.
Tomorrow I do this again, except I think I'll stretch more afterward. I'm looking forward to another go, even though I'm really blasted. My wife's counting on her spin class, though, so I have that to help drive me. I really ache, but after all, this is what I signed up for. This is what I wanted. I am getting stronger, working to turn untapped potential into unlocked potential.
Menu:
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1/2 diet soda (D'oh! 1 point.)
Dinner (4 blocks)
Boy am I glad to be done with today. I had half a diet soda at The Mill with the CrossFit crew. I was gonna just buy it... if I'm gonna be honest I have to count it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 1
Total points so far: 1
Things went well. I am not sure of the exact mechanisms involved but I did very well after CrossFit. Whatever combination of the workout, the aftercare, or the physical changes I've been through are responsible, I cannot say, but I felt and feel good. I thank God for the support I feel underneath me. I need every bit of it.
With the demon seemingly slain, the wary warrior slumps his shoulders and takes a deep breath, then steels himself for the final killing thrust. You never know about those demons.
Tomorrow I do this again, except I think I'll stretch more afterward. I'm looking forward to another go, even though I'm really blasted. My wife's counting on her spin class, though, so I have that to help drive me. I really ache, but after all, this is what I signed up for. This is what I wanted. I am getting stronger, working to turn untapped potential into unlocked potential.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 2 tsp. almond butter, 1 string cheese, 1 clementine
- 1 apple, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts
Recovery Snack (doesn't count, by order of Cheryl!)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 2 tsp. agave nectar, 1 cup strawberries, 1 cup broccoli
Lunch (8 blocks + fat)
- failed paleo pot pie leftovers plus veggies and extra chicken
- 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 cup cooked onion, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 10g chopped nuts, 6 oz. shrimp, 1 egg
Snack (1 blocks)
- 1 oz cheddar cheese, 1 clementine, 3 nuts
Snack (1 blocks)
- 1 oz cheddar cheese, 1 clementine, 3 nuts
- 1/2 diet soda (D'oh! 1 point.)
Dinner (4 blocks)
- 1 cup homemade tomato sauce, 1 bag broccoli slaw, 3 oz chicken, 1 HB egg, 3 nuts, 1+ tsp. olive oil.
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Boy am I glad to be done with today. I had half a diet soda at The Mill with the CrossFit crew. I was gonna just buy it... if I'm gonna be honest I have to count it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 1
Total points so far: 1
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Day 11 - Weight 308.6 lbs. - All About Tomorrow
I make a point on certain days, like today, to do as little exercise as possible and avoid stress. Sometimes that means a lot of hard work, sometimes it means putting work down. I've been productive today but my brain isn't burnt. I hope I can chill out tonight.
This CrossFit challenge is a major priority for me, but I'd hate readers to think it's my top priority. The truth is that I'm learning to tackle different things in my life with the attitude required for success, in search of a healthy balance which maximizes my productivity without sacrificing my well-being too much. Achieving balance in my life requires me to push hard on all fronts, letting God guide me, finding my limits as well as a good groove. The difference between a rut and a groove is perspective!
I don't feel too much anxiety about Friday because I think I have a good plan, but I'd be lying if I didn't admit to a little fear. I know I have good support. My struggle isn't a secret. I do, however, feel like I will have conquered a powerful demon when I get over this recovery hurdle. Facing a tough WOD is one thing, being afraid for your well-being is another. And when I'm through the valley, it'll be because I had a lot of help.
My wonderful wife got a great idea tonight, so we took her chicken pot pie recipie and modified it for paleo eating (no crust!) without consulting a cookbook or other source. It tasted yummy but the fat blocks were sky high, almost uncountable. We mistook tablespoons for teaspoons, which is a rather grievous (but delicious!) error when butter is involved. On the plus side, extra fat in paleo eating isn't a horrible thing. Eating a brownie fresh from a box off the grocer's shelf--that's an issue, because of how it spikes your blood sugar. We'll try to refine things and when we do, we'll share the recipie.
Menu:
Snack (2 blocks)
Snack (2 blocks)
- 3 oz. ground beef, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 small apple, 10g chopped nuts
Lunch (5 blocks)
I did my best to rest and relax today. I needed it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
This CrossFit challenge is a major priority for me, but I'd hate readers to think it's my top priority. The truth is that I'm learning to tackle different things in my life with the attitude required for success, in search of a healthy balance which maximizes my productivity without sacrificing my well-being too much. Achieving balance in my life requires me to push hard on all fronts, letting God guide me, finding my limits as well as a good groove. The difference between a rut and a groove is perspective!
I don't feel too much anxiety about Friday because I think I have a good plan, but I'd be lying if I didn't admit to a little fear. I know I have good support. My struggle isn't a secret. I do, however, feel like I will have conquered a powerful demon when I get over this recovery hurdle. Facing a tough WOD is one thing, being afraid for your well-being is another. And when I'm through the valley, it'll be because I had a lot of help.
My wonderful wife got a great idea tonight, so we took her chicken pot pie recipie and modified it for paleo eating (no crust!) without consulting a cookbook or other source. It tasted yummy but the fat blocks were sky high, almost uncountable. We mistook tablespoons for teaspoons, which is a rather grievous (but delicious!) error when butter is involved. On the plus side, extra fat in paleo eating isn't a horrible thing. Eating a brownie fresh from a box off the grocer's shelf--that's an issue, because of how it spikes your blood sugar. We'll try to refine things and when we do, we'll share the recipie.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 3 eggs, 1 string cheese, 1 cup cooked onions & peppers, 1 grapefruit, 1-1/2 tsp.butter
Snack (2 blocks)
- 110g sweet potatoes, 2 oz. chicken, 1 tsp. butter
Snack (2 blocks)
- 3 oz. ground beef, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 small apple, 10g chopped nuts
Lunch (5 blocks)
- 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 cup cooked onion, 1-1/2 tsp. butter, 10g chopped nuts, 3 oz. chicken, 1 egg
Snack (2 blocks)
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 apple, 2 oz. cheddar cheese, 6 nuts
Dinner (4 blocks +fat)
- failed paleo pot pie
Total water consumption: 8+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Total water consumption: 8+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I did my best to rest and relax today. I needed it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Day 10 - Weight 309.6 lbs. - Refining Process
I tried to do what I was told would facilitate recovery from CrossFit, and it worked, sort of. I guess you have to start somewhere. There was a brief rough spot but I got over it rapidly, and felt pretty good all day--great, in fact, most of the time, if you don't count the aches.
This might be the first time in my life I've ever regularly been accused of exercising too hard. That, in some way, gives me a certain brand of hope. ;)
Next time I'm going to have the recovery snack handy, and take longer to cool down. I will also spend time stretching. Everyone's different. This adjustment has been hard on me but I'm okay. I suspect that taking my recovery as seriously as (or more seriously than) my workout is the final big piece of the puzzle. As I see it, additional workout time burns a few more calories, helps me come down, and forces me to focus on real stretching. If it's God's will...
Friday will be interesting, to say the least. For now I am trying to stay away from food after dinner and church. I had 19 blocks plus recovery snack today, and that should do it.
Menu:
Recovery Snack (doesn't count, by order of Cheryl!)
- 1 oz. chicken; puree of 2 cups strawberries, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 cup broccoli
(basically 1 block PRO, 4 blocks CHO)
Lunch (7 blocks)
Are things getting better? Maybe so! And now I get to eat more on CrossFit days, because I obviously need it. I'm curious to see how it affects everything. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
This might be the first time in my life I've ever regularly been accused of exercising too hard. That, in some way, gives me a certain brand of hope. ;)
Next time I'm going to have the recovery snack handy, and take longer to cool down. I will also spend time stretching. Everyone's different. This adjustment has been hard on me but I'm okay. I suspect that taking my recovery as seriously as (or more seriously than) my workout is the final big piece of the puzzle. As I see it, additional workout time burns a few more calories, helps me come down, and forces me to focus on real stretching. If it's God's will...
Friday will be interesting, to say the least. For now I am trying to stay away from food after dinner and church. I had 19 blocks plus recovery snack today, and that should do it.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 2 tsp. almond butter,
Snack (2 blocks)
Snack (2 blocks)
- 110g sweet potatoes, 2 oz. chicken, 1 tsp. butter
Recovery Snack (doesn't count, by order of Cheryl!)
- 1 oz. chicken; puree of 2 cups strawberries, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 cup broccoli
(basically 1 block PRO, 4 blocks CHO)
Lunch (7 blocks)
- 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1/2 cup cooked onion, 1-1/2 tsp. olive oil, 10g chopped nuts, 3 oz. shrimp, 2 oz. chicken, 1 egg, 1 apple, 2 oz. cheddar cheese, 6 nuts
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 tsp. olive oil, a little spinach, several roasted garlic cloves, 1-1/2 cups strawberries, 1/2 cup cottage cheese
Dinner (4 blocks)
- 3 oz. chicken, 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 10g chopped nuts, 1 tsp butter, 1 egg
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Are things getting better? Maybe so! And now I get to eat more on CrossFit days, because I obviously need it. I'm curious to see how it affects everything. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Day 9 - Weight 309.8 lbs. - Coasting a little, thank God
My prospects for getting through more of this week with less "diet" work are pretty good, and I managed to get tomorrow's food together fairly quickly. I'm glad it gets easier.
I spent a bit of time at the YMCA today and did a little workout. I'd like to work harder on Tuesdays, on a regular basis, but for now showing up is good enough. Thursdays and Sundays will be full rest.
I am also achieving some sort of balance. I hope to get something down that really works for the year, because I'd like to kick butt this year--in my career, in health, in maintaining sobriety, in family, and most of all in Christ. I can only grow so fast, but I'm willing to try harder. There's a price I'm willing to pay and a limit as to how far I will go, but that stuff changes as I grow. Ultimately I want what God wants for me.
Tomorrow I try John's suggestions for post-CrossFit recovery. It might work wonders instantly, it might just make it easier, or it might take a few times before I notice a difference. I just hope tomorrow isn't as crazy as Monday. My recovery snack is going to be 1 oz. chicken plus a puree of 1 cup broccoli, 2 cups strawberries, and 1/2 cup blackberries. I'm a bit wary of going so carb-heavy but I trust John and Cheryl, and I need to avoid issues like I've been dealing with if it's at all possible. Besides, I didn't get fat eating fruits and veggies.
Menu:
I spent a bit of time at the YMCA today and did a little workout. I'd like to work harder on Tuesdays, on a regular basis, but for now showing up is good enough. Thursdays and Sundays will be full rest.
I am also achieving some sort of balance. I hope to get something down that really works for the year, because I'd like to kick butt this year--in my career, in health, in maintaining sobriety, in family, and most of all in Christ. I can only grow so fast, but I'm willing to try harder. There's a price I'm willing to pay and a limit as to how far I will go, but that stuff changes as I grow. Ultimately I want what God wants for me.
Tomorrow I try John's suggestions for post-CrossFit recovery. It might work wonders instantly, it might just make it easier, or it might take a few times before I notice a difference. I just hope tomorrow isn't as crazy as Monday. My recovery snack is going to be 1 oz. chicken plus a puree of 1 cup broccoli, 2 cups strawberries, and 1/2 cup blackberries. I'm a bit wary of going so carb-heavy but I trust John and Cheryl, and I need to avoid issues like I've been dealing with if it's at all possible. Besides, I didn't get fat eating fruits and veggies.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 165g sweet potatoes, 4 oz. pork, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp. butter
Snack/Meal (5 blocks)
- 1 apple, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 2/3 tsp. olive oil
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp almond butter
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 3-3/4 cups fry mix, 1-2/3 tsp. butter, 4.5 oz. shrimp, 1 egg
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 grapefruit, 2 string cheese, 6 nuts
Dinner (4 blocks)
- 4 oz. chicken, 2 cups green beans, 2 cups broccoli, 1-1/2 tsp butter
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Not a bad day. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Monday, February 14, 2011
Day 8 - Weight 310.2 lbs. - Sending Up a Flare
I have to admit to a serious issue I'm having with all this new stuff. It's been happening for about ten to fourteen days now. I called John, my Crossfit trainer, to ask about it because it's so unnerving and I'm haivng trouble dealing with it. This problem gets in the way of my life every day now, after I work out.
The problem: a blast of energy I cannot deal with, that might last for a few hours. For a while after each workout I'm okay, but within one hour I am off the wall. I cannot sit still. I want to go run or punch walls or something. I cannot concentrate. My legs shake. People ask me if I'm okay. This really gets upsetting because I have had issues with depression and anxiety in the past. I'm a recovering alcoholic, and this is very reminiscent of alcohol withdrawal--minus some of the other bits of misery--but that's a place I do not need to go. I've been involved with exercise long enough to know what the "workout high" feels like, and it's helpful for all things; I can concentrate better and I feel like a million bucks. Thus wasn't it, and frankly, it has been a bit scary. Plus, I have work to do, so I need to figure this out, and thus I reached out to John.
John told me the following: If you're doing things right, this can happen. My body is burning fat straight from the stores and it's giving me a blast of energy, because the hormonal responses are rocking me. To mitigate this, I might need to spend ten to twenty minutes on the treadmill or something after a hard workout, sort of an additional cooldown and to burn off excess energy. I should also switch up my recovery snack; instead of a three-block snack with fruit, I should do something along the lines of 1 block of protein, 3-4 blocks of carbs, and no fat. This'll help my body deal more effectively with this hardcore energizing that's happening. John said there may be an emotional adjustment period as well, but that once I refine how I deal with this, maybe I can enjoy the ride!
But today, it wasn't fun. I wanted to loose a barbaric YAWP! and run around the library punching things. It may seem funny but it wasn't. I just wanted to relax so I could work. I had so much to do. Honestly, I wanted to cry. Still, I survived, and got my work done as well.
I am happy this is all working, and it's nice that this may be part of the normal adjustment. And besides, it looks like tomorrow I will crack 310 lbs., so Happy Valentine's Day everyone! No candy!
Snack (1 blocks)
Lunch (4 blocks)
Snack (2 blocks)
Dinner (4 blocks)
Today was insane in many ways, but change can cause temporary insanity sometimes. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
The problem: a blast of energy I cannot deal with, that might last for a few hours. For a while after each workout I'm okay, but within one hour I am off the wall. I cannot sit still. I want to go run or punch walls or something. I cannot concentrate. My legs shake. People ask me if I'm okay. This really gets upsetting because I have had issues with depression and anxiety in the past. I'm a recovering alcoholic, and this is very reminiscent of alcohol withdrawal--minus some of the other bits of misery--but that's a place I do not need to go. I've been involved with exercise long enough to know what the "workout high" feels like, and it's helpful for all things; I can concentrate better and I feel like a million bucks. Thus wasn't it, and frankly, it has been a bit scary. Plus, I have work to do, so I need to figure this out, and thus I reached out to John.
John told me the following: If you're doing things right, this can happen. My body is burning fat straight from the stores and it's giving me a blast of energy, because the hormonal responses are rocking me. To mitigate this, I might need to spend ten to twenty minutes on the treadmill or something after a hard workout, sort of an additional cooldown and to burn off excess energy. I should also switch up my recovery snack; instead of a three-block snack with fruit, I should do something along the lines of 1 block of protein, 3-4 blocks of carbs, and no fat. This'll help my body deal more effectively with this hardcore energizing that's happening. John said there may be an emotional adjustment period as well, but that once I refine how I deal with this, maybe I can enjoy the ride!
But today, it wasn't fun. I wanted to loose a barbaric YAWP! and run around the library punching things. It may seem funny but it wasn't. I just wanted to relax so I could work. I had so much to do. Honestly, I wanted to cry. Still, I survived, and got my work done as well.
I am happy this is all working, and it's nice that this may be part of the normal adjustment. And besides, it looks like tomorrow I will crack 310 lbs., so Happy Valentine's Day everyone! No candy!
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 2 cups strawberries, 2 cups broccoli, 1 HB egg, 3 oz. chicken, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil
Snack (1 blocks)
- 1 string cheese, 1 small apple, 3 nuts
Recovery Snack (3 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp almond butter
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 1 bag broccoli slaw, 1/3 cup peas & carrots, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 4.5 oz. shrimp,, 1 egg
- 15g chopped nuts, 1/3 tsp olive oil
- 15g chopped nuts, 1/3 tsp olive oil
Snack (2 blocks)
- 1 grapefruit, 2 string cheeses, 6 nuts
Snack (1 blocks)
- 1 tbsp. c-raisins, 3 nuts, 1 string cheese stick
Dinner (4 blocks)
- 4 oz. pork, 165 g sweet potatoes, 1 cup green beans & broccoli, 1-2/3 tsp. butter
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Today was insane in many ways, but change can cause temporary insanity sometimes. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Day 7 - Weight 310.6 lbs. - Sunday Rest Challenge
I don't know if I'm ready for Monday to come but I can't complain about today. I have prepared a bit better for the coming week... not like I wanted to be but better than last week, and I'm not so otherwise buried, so it feels fine. Recovery seems better these days; I shoveled snow at church and did well enough. I'm glad that Crossfit has given me a body that can do a little work like and still function afterward. I used to weigh more than 400 lbs. back when, and couldn't walk around the store without a shopping cart, so I know the difference.
I went out to eat with my Dad tonight. I did well, choosing stuff I could sort of block out, then eating a clementine to round out the carbs when I got home.
Snack (1 blocks)
Dinner (5 blocks)
I think this was a good save on a crazy day. I went out to eat and did well. I hope to avoid restaurants generally for a while, but it was a success. I needed more food and it was available, so I ate it--not so much the best move there but I think I'm oay. We'll see. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
I went out to eat with my Dad tonight. I did well, choosing stuff I could sort of block out, then eating a clementine to round out the carbs when I got home.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 2 scrambled eggs, 2 oz. Lorraine cheese, 1 cup cooked peppers and onions, 1 cup green beans, 1 clementine
- 10g chopped nuts, 1 tsp. butter
- 10g chopped nuts, 1 tsp. butter
Snack (1 blocks)
1 string cheese, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 3 nuts
Lunch (4 blocks)
1 bag broccoli slaw, 1 cup homemade tomato sauce, 2 HB eggs, 2 oz. salmon, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil
Snack (2 blocks)
2 string cheeses, 6 nuts, 1 apple
Dinner (5 blocks)
5 oz. salmon, 2 cups broccoli, 1/2 cup pineapple, 1 clementine, 1.5 tsp butter
Snack (4 blocks+)
1 apple, 2 HB eggs, 1 clementine, 9 nuts, 3 oz. chicken
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffeeSnack (4 blocks+)
1 apple, 2 HB eggs, 1 clementine, 9 nuts, 3 oz. chicken
I think this was a good save on a crazy day. I went out to eat and did well. I hope to avoid restaurants generally for a while, but it was a success. I needed more food and it was available, so I ate it--not so much the best move there but I think I'm oay. We'll see. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Day 6 - Weight 310.8 lbs. - Treading Water
I actually have time to breathe today, sort of. I have to go shopping again! I love doing that but I'm exhausted from my workout this morning. I wanted to go to my Dad's too, but I don't know if it's feasible. I have to go to church early tomorrow to shovel snow and work the sound booth, so it's early bedtime for me, because I won't be awake later anyway. I'm just glad I can tread water, even though truthfully I have plenty to do. I have a week of healthy eating to plan for! And so, I press on.
Based on my own estimates I've lost a good five pounds or so this week. I will take what God gives me, but if I was able to lose a half pound a day for a while, I could be below 300 lbs. in early March. I shudder to think of the possibilities because I know it could be more. Eating like this, working like I am (or harder!), and staying disciplined for the full eight weeks might very well get me below 275 lbs. by the end. I don't even want to think of it. We'll see what the next Monday-to-Monday brings. Looking forward to Feb. 21!
Snack (3 blocks)
1 string cheese, 1 oz. Lorraine cheese, 1 apple, 8 nuts, 1 HB egg
Dinner (5 blocks)
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
Man, I'm so tired. I went over on blocks again. I think the food will help me today. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Based on my own estimates I've lost a good five pounds or so this week. I will take what God gives me, but if I was able to lose a half pound a day for a while, I could be below 300 lbs. in early March. I shudder to think of the possibilities because I know it could be more. Eating like this, working like I am (or harder!), and staying disciplined for the full eight weeks might very well get me below 275 lbs. by the end. I don't even want to think of it. We'll see what the next Monday-to-Monday brings. Looking forward to Feb. 21!
Menu:
Breakfast (5 blocks)
4 eggs, 1 string cheese stick, 1 cup cooked peppers and onions, 2 clementines, 1 small apple
1-1/2 tsp olive oil, 3 nuts
Recovery Snack (2 blocks)
½ cup greek yogurt, ½ cup blackberries, 1 tsp. almond butter
Snack (2 blocks)
1 whole grapefruit, 1 oz. Lorraine cheese, 1 oz. cheese curd, 6 nuts
Lunch (4 blocks)
3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1 tsp butter, 10g chopped nuts, 3 oz. steak, 1 egg
Snack (3 blocks)
1 string cheese, 1 oz. Lorraine cheese, 1 apple, 8 nuts, 1 HB egg
Dinner (5 blocks)
5 oz. chicken plus skin, 2+ cups green beans, 1 clementine, a few c-raisins, chicken fat & butter
Man, I'm so tired. I went over on blocks again. I think the food will help me today. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Friday, February 11, 2011
Day 5 - Weight 311.8 lbs. - Crossfit Alternate Reality
I'm coming to the realization that my perception is changing, and I can't say I'm entirely comfortable with it. Despite my heaping helping of brains I have always had trouble with the concept of following a process and paying attention to it, rather than the product, thereby letting the product come by itself. So here I am, having been challenged to eat and exercise differently for long enough to see a different and better result. And that's what's happening. I don't know what to do with it except try to push on and hold tight to that which brought me here. I've experienced that with Christianity and recovery from alcoholism as well as in my writing career, and now it's happening with exercise. The more I stick to it, doing my best, the more I get out of it.
John and Cheryl, the trainers at Crossfit, have been promising this would happen to me if I stuck to it long enough. I can do more than I once thought. I feel better than I thought I'd feel. It's all becoming different. I expect to give out and lose energy and it doesn't happen when I expect, so I have to work harder and I still do okay. My reaction to the new reality and my adjustment to the new attitude are exciting but shake me to the core. Change and growth are painful to some degree at least, and I'm experiencing that. It's becoming harder to question what I'm doing. Whining is no longer an option, it seems. I can only press on, and so that's what I do.
I didn't just start doing this. I've been working at Crossfit since last July, and started struggling with this paleo eating a few months later. Heck, for years I've been reaching for what I'm now getting. Now it's all coming together and I'm rocking the gym. I've come far and it never ends--it just changes. I feel funky here and there throughout the day, and it makes me wonder if there's something wrong with me... and there may be something wrong, but there may insteadbe something right that was previously wrong, and I just don't know anymore. We'll see as we go along. I haven't died yet.
Also, I'm definitely going to drop my water intake somewhat. I can't remember exactly what my Crossfit trainers said regarding water intake, but I want to be more conscious of it. My way is easier but I'd like to do better. I've researched hypernatremia (water intoxication) and I'm not worried about that so much, I'd just like to be sure that I'm drinking enough and have that be the end of it.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 2 cups strawberries, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1-1/2 tsp. olive oil, 2 oz. cheddar cheese
Late Morning Snack (1 block)
- 1/3 cup grapes, 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts
Recovery Snack (2 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 tsp. almond butter
Lunch (5 blocks)
- 3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1 small apple, 10g chopped nuts, 1 tsp. olive oil
- 3 oz chicken, 1.5 oz. shrimp, 1 egg
Late Afternoon Snack (2 blocks)
- 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 small apple, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 10 g chopped nuts
Another Snack (2 blocks)
- 2/3 cup cooked onions and a small pile of c-raisins, 6 nuts, 1 oz. cheese, 1 HB egg
Dinner (4 blocks)
- 3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1 tsp butter, 10g chopped nuts, 1.5 oz. shrimp, 2 ox. chicken, 1 egg
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
God is good. I've managed to survive another day of growth. Fruit, nut, and dried fruit intake today was higher than I'd like but it seemed necessary in the planning. I'm a block over on the day, too, but I've been ravenous all day. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
John and Cheryl, the trainers at Crossfit, have been promising this would happen to me if I stuck to it long enough. I can do more than I once thought. I feel better than I thought I'd feel. It's all becoming different. I expect to give out and lose energy and it doesn't happen when I expect, so I have to work harder and I still do okay. My reaction to the new reality and my adjustment to the new attitude are exciting but shake me to the core. Change and growth are painful to some degree at least, and I'm experiencing that. It's becoming harder to question what I'm doing. Whining is no longer an option, it seems. I can only press on, and so that's what I do.
I didn't just start doing this. I've been working at Crossfit since last July, and started struggling with this paleo eating a few months later. Heck, for years I've been reaching for what I'm now getting. Now it's all coming together and I'm rocking the gym. I've come far and it never ends--it just changes. I feel funky here and there throughout the day, and it makes me wonder if there's something wrong with me... and there may be something wrong, but there may insteadbe something right that was previously wrong, and I just don't know anymore. We'll see as we go along. I haven't died yet.
Also, I'm definitely going to drop my water intake somewhat. I can't remember exactly what my Crossfit trainers said regarding water intake, but I want to be more conscious of it. My way is easier but I'd like to do better. I've researched hypernatremia (water intoxication) and I'm not worried about that so much, I'd just like to be sure that I'm drinking enough and have that be the end of it.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
- 2 cups strawberries, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1-1/2 tsp. olive oil, 2 oz. cheddar cheese
Late Morning Snack (1 block)
- 1/3 cup grapes, 1 string cheese stick, 3 nuts
Recovery Snack (2 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 1 tsp. almond butter
Lunch (5 blocks)
- 3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1 small apple, 10g chopped nuts, 1 tsp. olive oil
- 3 oz chicken, 1.5 oz. shrimp, 1 egg
Late Afternoon Snack (2 blocks)
- 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 small apple, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 10 g chopped nuts
Another Snack (2 blocks)
- 2/3 cup cooked onions and a small pile of c-raisins, 6 nuts, 1 oz. cheese, 1 HB egg
Dinner (4 blocks)
- 3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1 tsp butter, 10g chopped nuts, 1.5 oz. shrimp, 2 ox. chicken, 1 egg
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
God is good. I've managed to survive another day of growth. Fruit, nut, and dried fruit intake today was higher than I'd like but it seemed necessary in the planning. I'm a block over on the day, too, but I've been ravenous all day. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Day 4 - Weight 312.2 lbs. - Head above water... I think
My weight dropped significantly and I wonder what will happen tomorrow, and the next day. I'm surely eating enough--not that I'm complaining!
I had to fast since after dinner last night, and I couldn't eat until 11 a.m. so I bought healthy food I could easily find (no time to prepare). It works well enough since cheese is okay. Lorraine is basically a low-sodium swiss. If I do cheese it's usually no funky chemicals or string cheese from the store, but being low sodium, I chose this today because I could more easily control the portion. Had I been prepared, it'd have been different.
I wonder if I'm drinking too much water--not that it's easy to truly drink too much, but I drink at least 9 quarts a day, more on workout days, and perhaps I can afford to drop back a little. It might even be good for me. I hesitate because I seem to be doing well with what I'm doing, but perhaps trying to hit a slightly lower target will be effective but more practical. Maybe yes, maybe no. Really, I've got bigger fish to fry. And so, I press on.
For my readers: I've decided that while filling my block prescription is important, it's okay to be occasionally flexible. For example, if I'm starving, eating an extra one block snack is probably a good idea. And on a day like today, where I just ran out of time, it's okay to be missing a block or two. I just don't want to make it a common occurrence, and frankly, I want to err on the side of eating too much.
Menu:
Late Breakfast (3 blocks)
- 3 cups fresh strawberries, 3 oz. Lorraine cheese, 9 almonds
Lunch (5 blocks)
- 1 bag of broccoli slaw, 1/2 cups cooked onion, 1 cup homemade tomato sauce, 1 tsp butter, 2/3 tsp olive oil
- 4.5 oz. lean ground beef, 1 oz cheese curd
Afternoon Snack (~4 blocks)
- 4 oz. pork, 1 small apple, 1 small orange, four grapes, 12 nuts
Dinner (5 blocks)
- 1 bag broccoli slaw, 1/2 cup cooked onoin, 1 cup homemade sauce
- 1/2 tsp butter, 1/2 tsp olive oil, 10 g chopped nuts
- 3 oz. pork, 1 oz. cheddar cheese, 1 oz cheese curd
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I'm discovering that I can do this if I'm willing to work and sacrifice, but I must also be realistic. I had to eat less blocks because at the end, I just couldn't eat anymore. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
I had to fast since after dinner last night, and I couldn't eat until 11 a.m. so I bought healthy food I could easily find (no time to prepare). It works well enough since cheese is okay. Lorraine is basically a low-sodium swiss. If I do cheese it's usually no funky chemicals or string cheese from the store, but being low sodium, I chose this today because I could more easily control the portion. Had I been prepared, it'd have been different.
I wonder if I'm drinking too much water--not that it's easy to truly drink too much, but I drink at least 9 quarts a day, more on workout days, and perhaps I can afford to drop back a little. It might even be good for me. I hesitate because I seem to be doing well with what I'm doing, but perhaps trying to hit a slightly lower target will be effective but more practical. Maybe yes, maybe no. Really, I've got bigger fish to fry. And so, I press on.
For my readers: I've decided that while filling my block prescription is important, it's okay to be occasionally flexible. For example, if I'm starving, eating an extra one block snack is probably a good idea. And on a day like today, where I just ran out of time, it's okay to be missing a block or two. I just don't want to make it a common occurrence, and frankly, I want to err on the side of eating too much.
Menu:
Late Breakfast (3 blocks)
- 3 cups fresh strawberries, 3 oz. Lorraine cheese, 9 almonds
Lunch (5 blocks)
- 1 bag of broccoli slaw, 1/2 cups cooked onion, 1 cup homemade tomato sauce, 1 tsp butter, 2/3 tsp olive oil
- 4.5 oz. lean ground beef, 1 oz cheese curd
Afternoon Snack (~4 blocks)
- 4 oz. pork, 1 small apple, 1 small orange, four grapes, 12 nuts
Dinner (5 blocks)
- 1 bag broccoli slaw, 1/2 cup cooked onoin, 1 cup homemade sauce
- 1/2 tsp butter, 1/2 tsp olive oil, 10 g chopped nuts
- 3 oz. pork, 1 oz. cheddar cheese, 1 oz cheese curd
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I'm discovering that I can do this if I'm willing to work and sacrifice, but I must also be realistic. I had to eat less blocks because at the end, I just couldn't eat anymore. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Day 3 - Weight 313.6 lbs. - Keeping My Chin Above Water
Last night preparing for today, and early today as well, was all about getting it done. I have no time and my inability to prep like I planned is costing me. For instance, if you look at breakfast, I put all that stuff in the blender and prayed because I knew there'd be no time to try and cram that down my throat if it weren't in puree form. My cottage cheese snack wasn't blended but was thrown together with equal haste. And ya know what? It all tasted good enough. The breakfast puree actually worked well enough and I was impressed. I guess I'm in this for real, yes, but I'm hoping for a better tomorrow.
I also had to use too much fruit. This weekend I pray I can make a leisurely preparation and enjoy setting myself up for the week. I find this stuff to be fun when I don't have to cram 45 minutes of prep into half that time at 10:30 p.m. just so I don't go too crazy the next day.
Today's WOD didn't seem so bad but I feel wrecked nonetheless. I worked hard. I think I set realistic benchmarks and wasn't dogging it, and I see growth in the future. I did regular-ish burpees today instead of the easier ones because I could, and because I expect to grow enough to where I'll see that kind of result in eight weeks. If I put in the work, the result will come, and I want victory when we test again!
And so I press on.
For my readers: You might notice my water consumption is listed as a total. That's because I drink way too much to mark it down all the time. I have a great mental system that helps me keep track, and I'd hate to depart from what works! I tend to drink at least eight quarts a day, more on workout days, with a good 2-3 quarts before 10 a.m. to get me started. I drink it from the moment I get out of bed to later in the evening, but I try to stop within a few hours before bed because I don't want to pee all night. I generally know how much I've had at a given time, up to later in the day, when I know an extra quart or two will do me right. It's taken a while to cultivate that.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
2 cups strawberries, 2 cups broccoli, 2 HB eggs, 2 oz. cheddar cheese, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil
Morning Snack (2 blocks)
approx. 3/4 cup broccoli, 1/2 cup grapes, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 tsp olive oil
Post-Crossfit Recovery Snack (2 blocks)
1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 10g chopped nuts
Lunch (5 blocks)
4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil, 5g chopped nuts, 4.5 oz. leftover fish, 2 eggs
Afternoon Snack (2 blocks)
1 whole grapefruit, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts
Dinner (4 blocks)
3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 2 oz. chicken, 1.5 oz. shrimp, 1-1/2 tsp butter
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I'm not happy that I had to eat so much fruit, but I'll take it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
I also had to use too much fruit. This weekend I pray I can make a leisurely preparation and enjoy setting myself up for the week. I find this stuff to be fun when I don't have to cram 45 minutes of prep into half that time at 10:30 p.m. just so I don't go too crazy the next day.
Today's WOD didn't seem so bad but I feel wrecked nonetheless. I worked hard. I think I set realistic benchmarks and wasn't dogging it, and I see growth in the future. I did regular-ish burpees today instead of the easier ones because I could, and because I expect to grow enough to where I'll see that kind of result in eight weeks. If I put in the work, the result will come, and I want victory when we test again!
And so I press on.
For my readers: You might notice my water consumption is listed as a total. That's because I drink way too much to mark it down all the time. I have a great mental system that helps me keep track, and I'd hate to depart from what works! I tend to drink at least eight quarts a day, more on workout days, with a good 2-3 quarts before 10 a.m. to get me started. I drink it from the moment I get out of bed to later in the evening, but I try to stop within a few hours before bed because I don't want to pee all night. I generally know how much I've had at a given time, up to later in the day, when I know an extra quart or two will do me right. It's taken a while to cultivate that.
Menu:
Breakfast (4 blocks)
2 cups strawberries, 2 cups broccoli, 2 HB eggs, 2 oz. cheddar cheese, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil
Morning Snack (2 blocks)
approx. 3/4 cup broccoli, 1/2 cup grapes, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 tsp olive oil
Post-Crossfit Recovery Snack (2 blocks)
1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blackberries, 10g chopped nuts
Lunch (5 blocks)
4 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp olive oil, 5g chopped nuts, 4.5 oz. leftover fish, 2 eggs
Afternoon Snack (2 blocks)
1 whole grapefruit, 2 string cheese sticks, 6 nuts
Dinner (4 blocks)
3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 2 oz. chicken, 1.5 oz. shrimp, 1-1/2 tsp butter
Total water consumption: 10+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I'm not happy that I had to eat so much fruit, but I'll take it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Day 2 - Weight 316.0 lbs. - Catching My Breath
Some of that body-imbalance weight (probably water) is gone overnight--won't be seeing that kind of thing again for eight weeks or more! Praise God for that. I don't regret Saturday or Sunday though. Not yet, anyway. I seem to be recovering well from yesterday's killer WOD, although I ache profusely. My lower abdominal girdle is a wreck. I don't think I'm injured but it feels horribly weak--looks like a growth area. I wish Wednesday was not tomorrow. ;)
I was reading in The Paleo Cookbook yesterday about the Paleo diet and I gotta say, there are limits, folks. hahaha Still, I noticed their recommendations on consumption of nuts and dried fruits. For people looking to lose weight, which I am, they say to limit their use. Luckily I think I can do that. I don't do more than one serving of dried fruit a day (which is a paltry tablespoon as it is!) and all I have to do is be more aware of just how many nut products or nuts I am eating--and in the process, integrate additional fat sources into my diet. Today, for example, I had fry for breakfast and used butter instead of chopped nuts. I've also discovered that grapes have an awful lot of sugar in them compared to most other fruit choices I'd make, so if I eat them, it'll be for recovery snacks. Too bad--they're awfully convenient because they're not messy.
For my readers': I count greek yogurt as two protein and one carb instead of one-and-one, because the protein content of greek yogurt is very high. I plan to restrict greek yogurt consumption to recovery snacks or in-a-pinch breakfasts, with no more than one serving a day. I think I will publish my fry mix recipie on this blog as well, once I've refined it. It's a great way to get carb variety without feeling like you have to eat a massive pile of broccoli or trough of raw spinach each day. The recipie itself isn't as useful as the concept, I think.
Menu:
Morning Snack (2 blocks)
1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1 tsp almond butter, 1/2 cup blackberries
Breakfast (4 blocks)
3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp butter, 3 oz pork, 1 egg
Lunch (7 blocks)
2.5 cups cauliflower, 2 cups cooked onions, 1 small apple
1 tsp butter, 1-1/3 tsp olive oil, .5g chopped nuts, 1 tsp almond butter
4 oz steak, 2 oz chicken, 1 HB egg
Post-workout snack (1 block)
1/4 cup cottage cheese, .5g chopped nuts, 1/2 cup grapes
Dinner (5 blocks)
7.5 oz. Lake Ontario salmon, 1 orange, 2 cups cooked cauliflower, 1-1/3 tsp butter, 5g chopped nuts
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I'm not happy that I had to eat such a big lunch, but I'll take it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
I was reading in The Paleo Cookbook yesterday about the Paleo diet and I gotta say, there are limits, folks. hahaha Still, I noticed their recommendations on consumption of nuts and dried fruits. For people looking to lose weight, which I am, they say to limit their use. Luckily I think I can do that. I don't do more than one serving of dried fruit a day (which is a paltry tablespoon as it is!) and all I have to do is be more aware of just how many nut products or nuts I am eating--and in the process, integrate additional fat sources into my diet. Today, for example, I had fry for breakfast and used butter instead of chopped nuts. I've also discovered that grapes have an awful lot of sugar in them compared to most other fruit choices I'd make, so if I eat them, it'll be for recovery snacks. Too bad--they're awfully convenient because they're not messy.
For my readers': I count greek yogurt as two protein and one carb instead of one-and-one, because the protein content of greek yogurt is very high. I plan to restrict greek yogurt consumption to recovery snacks or in-a-pinch breakfasts, with no more than one serving a day. I think I will publish my fry mix recipie on this blog as well, once I've refined it. It's a great way to get carb variety without feeling like you have to eat a massive pile of broccoli or trough of raw spinach each day. The recipie itself isn't as useful as the concept, I think.
Menu:
Morning Snack (2 blocks)
1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1 tsp almond butter, 1/2 cup blackberries
Breakfast (4 blocks)
3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1-1/2 tsp butter, 3 oz pork, 1 egg
Lunch (7 blocks)
2.5 cups cauliflower, 2 cups cooked onions, 1 small apple
1 tsp butter, 1-1/3 tsp olive oil, .5g chopped nuts, 1 tsp almond butter
4 oz steak, 2 oz chicken, 1 HB egg
Post-workout snack (1 block)
1/4 cup cottage cheese, .5g chopped nuts, 1/2 cup grapes
Dinner (5 blocks)
7.5 oz. Lake Ontario salmon, 1 orange, 2 cups cooked cauliflower, 1-1/3 tsp butter, 5g chopped nuts
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I'm not happy that I had to eat such a big lunch, but I'll take it. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Day 1 - Weight 322.6 lbs. - Reality Bites
I weighed 322.6, which is a good 8 pounds more than I wanted to weigh. I ate weird on Saturday and less weird on Sunday, in expectation of having to go hardcore Paleo today, so it's to be expected, I guess. Today's WOD ("Angie," if you're a Crossfit person) whipped me but good, and I'm half surprised to be feeling alright. I'm struggling with life things that hopefully, by Thursday, will be resolved. I'd like to establish a routine but that may not happen. And so, I press on.
I think it could be said that I eat more fruit than is ideal. This is for practical reasons; I just can't prepare and eat that much veggie carbs right now. I'm working to revamp everything to make it possible to eat less fruit. One way is to better block out meals and snacks, such as 4 four-block meals plus three blocks of snacks. We'll see what I can do.
For my readers': Fry mix is a combination of Paleo-approved veggies that I measure and then calculate how much would be a block (10 carbs). It is mostly good veggies (such as beans or broccoli or mushrooms) with peas added to add carbs to de-bulk. The aggregate quantity of peas in a serving is quite low. My old version included a number of things available only in cans (such as water chestnuts and bamboo shoots); now it's all fresh or frozen.
I'm still learning so I may tweak the format of this blog, FYI.
Menu:
Breakfast (5 blocks)
- 3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1/3 cup peas
- 3 oz. shrimp, 2 oz. chicken
- 1/3 tsp olive oil, 20g chopped nuts (almonds & walnuts)
- 3 tsp heavy cream (in coffee)
Post-Crossfit Recovery Snack (3 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup grapes, 1/2 cup blackberries
- 1 string cheese stick, 1 tsp almond butter, 3 nuts
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 2 HB eggs, 2 oz. pork, 12 nuts
- 1 big grapefruit, 1 small apple
Afternoon Snack (1 block)
- handful of raw spinach, 1/4 cup grapes, 1/3 cup raw broccoli, 1/4 cup roasted garlic cloves
- 1/2 tsp olive oil, HB egg
Dinner (6 blocks)
- 6+ oz. T-bone steak, 2 cups green beans, 2 cups broccoli, 1/3 cup peas, 1/4 cup grapes
- 1-1/3 tsp butter, 6 nuts
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I had to run to the store for a late afternoon snack after a killer Crossfit day, and I think I did alright. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
I think it could be said that I eat more fruit than is ideal. This is for practical reasons; I just can't prepare and eat that much veggie carbs right now. I'm working to revamp everything to make it possible to eat less fruit. One way is to better block out meals and snacks, such as 4 four-block meals plus three blocks of snacks. We'll see what I can do.
For my readers': Fry mix is a combination of Paleo-approved veggies that I measure and then calculate how much would be a block (10 carbs). It is mostly good veggies (such as beans or broccoli or mushrooms) with peas added to add carbs to de-bulk. The aggregate quantity of peas in a serving is quite low. My old version included a number of things available only in cans (such as water chestnuts and bamboo shoots); now it's all fresh or frozen.
I'm still learning so I may tweak the format of this blog, FYI.
Menu:
Breakfast (5 blocks)
- 3 cups fry mix, 1 tbsp c-raisins, 1/3 cup peas
- 3 oz. shrimp, 2 oz. chicken
- 1/3 tsp olive oil, 20g chopped nuts (almonds & walnuts)
- 3 tsp heavy cream (in coffee)
Post-Crossfit Recovery Snack (3 blocks)
- 1/2 cup greek yogurt, 1/2 cup grapes, 1/2 cup blackberries
- 1 string cheese stick, 1 tsp almond butter, 3 nuts
Lunch (4 blocks)
- 2 HB eggs, 2 oz. pork, 12 nuts
- 1 big grapefruit, 1 small apple
Afternoon Snack (1 block)
- handful of raw spinach, 1/4 cup grapes, 1/3 cup raw broccoli, 1/4 cup roasted garlic cloves
- 1/2 tsp olive oil, HB egg
Dinner (6 blocks)
- 6+ oz. T-bone steak, 2 cups green beans, 2 cups broccoli, 1/3 cup peas, 1/4 cup grapes
- 1-1/3 tsp butter, 6 nuts
Total water consumption: 9+ quarts throughout the day, including coffee
I had to run to the store for a late afternoon snack after a killer Crossfit day, and I think I did alright. Based on the rules and all that, my total points for the day: 0
Total points so far: 0
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Day 0 - Preparation Day
I'd like to say everything's going as planned but alas, it is not. I had hoped to have a few days' meals planned, plus food prepared and packaged, and it hasn't happened. We were lucky to get our shopping done yesterday with the weather and all. I've been working up to this for a few weeks now, so I hope it was enough. Maybe during the big game I can at least make sure we're good to go for tomorrow. I'd hate to stumble on day one! My block prescription is 19, which is a lot of food to deal with.
Tomorrow at Crossfit (Crossfit Ascend, Rome, NY) we're doing pictures and a benchmark WOD. I can't remember if we're doing any measurements; if not I'll have my awesome wife measure me at home. I'm also weighing in at home--that's for me, just another measure of progress. Since I weigh 300+ pounds it's sort of important. I have a name brand digital bathroom scale that goes maybe 20 pounds higher than my current weight.
Not an auspicious beginning, but a beginning nonetheless, and so I press on.
Tomorrow at Crossfit (Crossfit Ascend, Rome, NY) we're doing pictures and a benchmark WOD. I can't remember if we're doing any measurements; if not I'll have my awesome wife measure me at home. I'm also weighing in at home--that's for me, just another measure of progress. Since I weigh 300+ pounds it's sort of important. I have a name brand digital bathroom scale that goes maybe 20 pounds higher than my current weight.
Not an auspicious beginning, but a beginning nonetheless, and so I press on.
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